Life has certainly continued to moved forward. With the scare of cancer, which thankfully has been removed and not spread beyond the giant mass that was, and the radiation and chemo all in the rearview, I have only bright skies and a happy life to live.
Some days it is all surreal. Have I really just completed 10 months of a variety of treatment (with another 7 to go)? Did I really under go 4 surgeries, 3 within a 4 week period? Am I one in eight and a cancer survivor? Really?
Some of the things I've learned about myself during this time include my strength, my inner peace, my love for life. When I say my strength I'm not referring to not crying or what I've endured physically. I am referring to the ability to know what I need to know, be comforted by it, and realize that there is plenty I don't know and it is ok. The strength to take everything one moment at a time and find the ever lasting silver lining in that moment.
My inner peace is always remaining calm. Looking in the mirror at my bald self and still loving that reflection. Being at peace with the new reflection and the scars I have to remind me what I've been thru. The inner peace of being grounded, grateful for each and every moment I am blessed with while on this earth. The inner peace of knowing I choose to remain calm and accept what is.
My love for life including those I choose to be present with and share my life with. Love for all the good, the bad, and the in between. Life is a gift and I am here to live it as fully as I can with as much happiness as I can share.
This probably sounds like rambling, but bottom line is, I've had time to really appreciate myself and find a new love and strength from within. Not in an arrogant way, but a way that allows me to share without shame with those who want to hear.
Anyway... I've posted more pictures. Can you see how thick my hair has gotten?
Some days it is all surreal. Have I really just completed 10 months of a variety of treatment (with another 7 to go)? Did I really under go 4 surgeries, 3 within a 4 week period? Am I one in eight and a cancer survivor? Really?
Some of the things I've learned about myself during this time include my strength, my inner peace, my love for life. When I say my strength I'm not referring to not crying or what I've endured physically. I am referring to the ability to know what I need to know, be comforted by it, and realize that there is plenty I don't know and it is ok. The strength to take everything one moment at a time and find the ever lasting silver lining in that moment.
My inner peace is always remaining calm. Looking in the mirror at my bald self and still loving that reflection. Being at peace with the new reflection and the scars I have to remind me what I've been thru. The inner peace of being grounded, grateful for each and every moment I am blessed with while on this earth. The inner peace of knowing I choose to remain calm and accept what is.
My love for life including those I choose to be present with and share my life with. Love for all the good, the bad, and the in between. Life is a gift and I am here to live it as fully as I can with as much happiness as I can share.
This probably sounds like rambling, but bottom line is, I've had time to really appreciate myself and find a new love and strength from within. Not in an arrogant way, but a way that allows me to share without shame with those who want to hear.
Anyway... I've posted more pictures. Can you see how thick my hair has gotten?