This week has gone by relatively slow. Not because I haven't been busy but because of how busy I have been. All of the things I do I do because I love to do them. I love being around other people, especially when they are as passionate about whatever thing it is we are involved in at the moment, as I am.
This week a few new friends and colleagues went to great lengths to put together my ideal fundraising event (to benefit breast cancer research of course), BUNCO for breast cancer. What makes it the ideal fundraiser for me personally is the getting together with women and men, playing a simple game, being loud because we are all excited about learning a new game, meeting people for the first time, having a glass of wine (not me but the others) and just good ole fashion socializing. While I will support a 3day walker, I will say it now, I will not do the 3 day walk. I can't even come up with words to explain why, but mostly I like my bed at night and I'm far more of a social for a few hours kinda gal. And if you know me you know I love to run (even though I can't do that because of my herniated disk in the neck issue), camp, bike ride, etc, but 3days to walk 60 miles, can't even begin to pretend I want to push through. Sorry if that offends any of you! I do and have donated to the cause for anyone who is more brave than I to do it.
Tonight I felt a little tug on my heart as I gave my babies a final night time kiss. Why? Remember when I said this is crunch week? Well... I have been getting up early so I can get things done before going into the office and then coming home and getting more done, and although we are all in the same space while this is happening I'm not really present for them. Add that to the 10 or so days following treatment that I'm not feeling well and have to keep them at a distance to avoid infection. Sounds like a recipe for guilty mama. On the flip side only four more chemo treatments and we will realign again.
We saw the oncologist yesterday and everything still looks great! She was happy (as were we) that we didn't go to hospital or have any other major issues than the angry breakout on my head and face for which I was prescribed minicyclin (they have meds for just about everything). We pray this next round goes much the same, but without the breakout!
Final words for now. I decided to share some of the not so good feelings/moments going forward. This will not be easy because I prefer not to focus on the yucky and instead find my silver lining in everything. But the reality is one of you or another someone you know may find themselves here one day. If any of what I share can help in any way, that is how sharing the icky makes it worth it for me.
This week a few new friends and colleagues went to great lengths to put together my ideal fundraising event (to benefit breast cancer research of course), BUNCO for breast cancer. What makes it the ideal fundraiser for me personally is the getting together with women and men, playing a simple game, being loud because we are all excited about learning a new game, meeting people for the first time, having a glass of wine (not me but the others) and just good ole fashion socializing. While I will support a 3day walker, I will say it now, I will not do the 3 day walk. I can't even come up with words to explain why, but mostly I like my bed at night and I'm far more of a social for a few hours kinda gal. And if you know me you know I love to run (even though I can't do that because of my herniated disk in the neck issue), camp, bike ride, etc, but 3days to walk 60 miles, can't even begin to pretend I want to push through. Sorry if that offends any of you! I do and have donated to the cause for anyone who is more brave than I to do it.
Tonight I felt a little tug on my heart as I gave my babies a final night time kiss. Why? Remember when I said this is crunch week? Well... I have been getting up early so I can get things done before going into the office and then coming home and getting more done, and although we are all in the same space while this is happening I'm not really present for them. Add that to the 10 or so days following treatment that I'm not feeling well and have to keep them at a distance to avoid infection. Sounds like a recipe for guilty mama. On the flip side only four more chemo treatments and we will realign again.
We saw the oncologist yesterday and everything still looks great! She was happy (as were we) that we didn't go to hospital or have any other major issues than the angry breakout on my head and face for which I was prescribed minicyclin (they have meds for just about everything). We pray this next round goes much the same, but without the breakout!
Final words for now. I decided to share some of the not so good feelings/moments going forward. This will not be easy because I prefer not to focus on the yucky and instead find my silver lining in everything. But the reality is one of you or another someone you know may find themselves here one day. If any of what I share can help in any way, that is how sharing the icky makes it worth it for me.