I'm so sorry i haven't posted in a while. Things have been busy. Eddie has gone back to work and school is back in full swing. I'm working full-time and getting my infusions each 3weeks with blood draw the day before, thru June of 2015.
I've found myself very reflective lately. Trying to understand more behind what to do with myself after I've just come through a life threatening disease with the best case scenario. I've got this little voice telling me there is more to do than the 9 to 5, but I'm struggling to hear clearly what I should be doing. In the mean time I continue to think about it and look for signs of what I should be doing. I know I want to be with my family first. And I want to continue to give in a meaningful way. The question is how to not only accomplish both, but how to determine what contributing means and what meaningful way means.
I've got a need to truly leave this chapter behind me but I don't know what that means either. It's an odd place to be. I've been trying to find a book on life after cancer. Hoping to find someone who has authored a book on similar feelings and experiences and how they dealt with it and moved forward. I'll probably try a support group somewhere down the line here.
Other than this, things are good. Kids are healthy, I'm healthy, Eddie is healthy. My foggy brain is back to near normal which is a relief. I'm preparing for the lovely holiday season that is upon us. So many fun things and family excitement to look forward to.
That's the quick update. I'll try to post more regularly. Please pray that I find answers to the questions I have and that I am able to make choices that support my needs as well as the needs of my family.
Happy holidays to you all. Stay healthy.
I've found myself very reflective lately. Trying to understand more behind what to do with myself after I've just come through a life threatening disease with the best case scenario. I've got this little voice telling me there is more to do than the 9 to 5, but I'm struggling to hear clearly what I should be doing. In the mean time I continue to think about it and look for signs of what I should be doing. I know I want to be with my family first. And I want to continue to give in a meaningful way. The question is how to not only accomplish both, but how to determine what contributing means and what meaningful way means.
I've got a need to truly leave this chapter behind me but I don't know what that means either. It's an odd place to be. I've been trying to find a book on life after cancer. Hoping to find someone who has authored a book on similar feelings and experiences and how they dealt with it and moved forward. I'll probably try a support group somewhere down the line here.
Other than this, things are good. Kids are healthy, I'm healthy, Eddie is healthy. My foggy brain is back to near normal which is a relief. I'm preparing for the lovely holiday season that is upon us. So many fun things and family excitement to look forward to.
That's the quick update. I'll try to post more regularly. Please pray that I find answers to the questions I have and that I am able to make choices that support my needs as well as the needs of my family.
Happy holidays to you all. Stay healthy.